Okay, so here I am at work unable to concentrate again. I just have to write in between tasks. I have a lot on my mind. Namely, where my relationship is going. I received some very helpful insight in my comments that I will take to heart. That's part of why I write here, to get helpful insight from you guys. In other words...free therapy! Thanks so much...
Last night I ended up stopping at my brothers and we made a nice spaghetti dinner. That helped alleviate my loneliness. Then I went home and played with the pets for a bit before I passed out on the couch. Ron woke me at about 2 a.m. (as usual) and my tongue was firmly stuck to the roof of my mouth. Ew. And ouch! After a guzzle of water from the sink it was crash into bed time. I really wanted to talk to and hug Ron more, but I was doing a mid-sleep body transfer and wanted nothing but to go back to deep sleep. Now I'm still not awake. Ughggahhag.
I've decided that since I love writing so much, I'm going to sit my butt down and write Ron a letter about how he's been making me feel about myself. In it, I am going to mention marriage counseling again. I mentioned it to him last week and he seemed receptive. We really do need it, as we need to get some things out into the open in front of a third party. I have determined, many times actually, that he is simply not happy with where he is and as much as he wants to deny it, he's got ISSUES. He is taking it out on me and he needs to know this. Then he can deny and argue all he wants...in front of a counsellor. Everyone has their own set of problems and sometimes they need a little help sorting them out. There is nothing wrong with that.
Shit, this isn't working. I seriously gotta concentrate... I'll be back later. Maybe.
1 comment:
good lucky, honey. you are doing the right thing by trying to take care of it now. hugs! xoxo, d
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