What's next?

I know what it is I need, yet I'm STILL too afraid to do anything about it. I've always been this way. I need to get out of my comfort zone and challenge myself. Will I ever do it? There are so many things to do in this life. When will I have to courage to make myself do something that I've never done before? How long will I continue to just exist day in and day out? This continues to sit in the back of my mind and will be there until I decide to do something about it. There is something out there for me. Fuck, just HOW many other people in their twenties think this way? Just like I had my doubts about love, I have my doubts about...uh...life. What else is there? I found love again. I can make that work and it won't always be easy but I'm up for THAT challenge. But what's my other passion? I need other things. I'll find it, or them, or whatever the fuck it is I'm looking for. See, but I always wait for things to come to me. What can I do differently? *gulp* Go after it? Me?? YIKES! We'll see...someday...I think...