Tangeant

I am terribly down today for no good reason, again. Lame lame lame. Everyone writes about their unhappiness. I shouldn't be yet another one of them. I have plenty of things to be happy about. I have a fun month to look forward to. I don't want to have to list things again. No reason. I don't want to go home. I'll have to clean and I don't feel like cleaning. I can't stop cleaning lately. I don't know what to do with myself. Ron goes back to working nights. I won't see him for a while. I can't depend on him for all my happiness. I have work to do but I'm spacing out again. Why am I sad? What can I do? Suck it up. Go on. That's what everyone does. Everything is fine. What if...?? Don't worry about it.

I'm lonely here at work. I want someone to talk to. Everyone is busy. I should be busy. I am busy. But I don't wanna do it. What do I do? Sleep? I did that. I can't sleep anymore. Exercise? I really need to exercise. Maybe tomorrow. I'll get back into the groove tomorrow. Today is another random day. I can't concentrate on anything. I don't know. I wanna go somewhere. But where? How? I wanna go.