I know... I haven't had time to post in here like I used to. I also haven't had much to say, even though there has been a lot going on.
Marriage continues to have its ups and downs, but I am very happy to say that we are on the up and up now. We've had to learn a lot about each other in the four years we've been married and it hasn't been easy. Most of the difficulties had to do with learning how to communicate with each other effictively and I think we've figured it out. It's the simple fact that marriage is a partnership and we continued to try to be individuals. We are in the process of working out what we need to do to be happy as a couple and it is working out nicely. The most important discovery we've made is that we really do love each other and our marriage is worth it.
I'm thrilled to report that I finally got snowboarding down this year. I'm not fast and don't do jumps, but I can get down the hill safely and comfortably while actually have fun! I'd gotten a season pass for this year and it was great. My boss had given me Fridays off so that I could hit the mountain with Melanie while she was unemployed. It was great and I learned so much. Now she is finally employed and I have more hours, which are good things but... I'm going to miss the mountain. Next year we're probably going to have to be weekend warriors again, but at least I've finally learned the basics and can enjoy myself.
The new job is not so new anymore and it's going great. My boss is a very nice guy. It's so nicee working for a man again. My old boss was such a manipulative bitch and I never want to see her again. I'm hoping we continue to be busy so that I can continue to get more hours. I'm up to 30 now and it would be perfect, except that Ron has been out of work for the past four months. The company he worked for hadn't exactly laid him off, just told him that there were not enough jobs at the time and that he would be brought back on as soon as there was work. Well, that was at the end of December... It seems that they are looking out for their own, as in giving all available work to family members of the owner, rather than those who actually do a good job. So Ron is starting to seriously look for work and I hope he finds something soon. Things are kinda tight and it sucks.
I've also been pet sitting on and off, both for my boss and for friends. I've decided that I don't really want to make it a business, as it's too unpredictable. But it's very fun to do on the side and I will continue to do it that way, just like I do with my art. Little projects here and there are so fun and I want to keep it that way. I've never been one who likes to turn the things I enjoy into stressful work. I actually had a great gig going for a while... An old mutual acquaintence from high school had me walking her adorable 5 year old lab mix on the weekends for a few months. It would have been great if it could have lasted, but it turns out the dog had an illness that was undetectable until she got really sick and died. She just stopped eating one day. I noticed she was acting really sick one weekend and notified the owner, who said she'd noticed a difference in behavior in the weeks prior. It turns out the poor thing had twisted intestines...or something like that. After the owner took her in for emergency surgery, she died a few hours later. I actually don't know exactly what it was, as the owner was so upset when she told me and I didn't want to press. Plus, I was bawling myself. That was in the beginning of March and I haven't heard much from the owner since. I feel awful about it still, but the owner and I know it wasn't my fault. That dog loved me and we had a wonderful time while it lasted.
I also have a little art project I'm working on with an old friend. I don't want to get too much into it here, or anywhere else actually. I find that talking about it too much seems to jinx it. I'm just hoping to get something finished and actually published some day. I think this will be a great opportunity for that and I love working with this woman. So that's that... For now...
The pets are all doing fine. Stanley cat is almost 11 and Henry cat is 5. They are both such wonderful kitties. The four birds are well and enjoy their fly time a few times a week. I finally decided on a name for my little gecko, too. We call 'her' Pat because we're not exactly sure about the sex. I just like to think it's a girl because of those big, adorable eyes that look like they have white lashes. Geckos are SO ADORABLE! I still have the lovely saltwater tank and recently added a small freshwater tank in the kitchen. It was a 3 gallon but that was way too small, so I upgraded to a 10 gallon in late January. It's been fun, but I'm trying to cut back on pet spending. The salt tank just had a few hardy corals in it. I had to do a take-down and rebuild on it that included replacing half of the sand and removing some rocks. Things had started to look a little 'brown' and some of the corals were dying. I figured I'd just do an all fish tank and not get so into the corals for now. I'm not going to be getting any more corals for a while, as they're so damn expensive. But the fact that I've maintained things so well is the reason the system is still quite healthy.
Oh yes, one more thing... I'm still happily childfree. Wheee! I'm coming to terms with it and trying my best to be positive and happy for those who choose to have children. The only problem has been my deep seated insecurities...feeling like less of a woman because I've chosen to skip the whole thing. I'm trying not to identify myself as being childfree so much. It's just part of who I am and so what? There is nothing wrong with me. I know that if I did do it, I'd probably be a wonderful mom...just miserable and bored on the inside. Not to mention full of constant worry. I'm already an anxious mess about taking care of myself! I'm happy that I know myself enough and have put enough thought into the whole thing to realize that it's not for me. Now I have to be confident about it. I also don't want to defend my choice by saying, "I love children!" or "I don't hate kids!" because the truth of the matter is that neither is true. At this point in my life, I am indifferent to them. Just like certain people are indifferent to pets or fish tanks. So there. Heh.
Well, I'm pretty sure that's it for now. I have work to do and must concentrate again. Boss will be in soon. Maybe I'll be back before the year is up.
Later!
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