Self portraits and more!

My mom's parents holding me about two months after I was born...



This picture was up in the hallway in one of my moms collages for at least 15 years. It's significant to me because I never met my grandma Gertrude. She passed away about a month after this was taken. She was only 62. She died of a hemorrage at the base of her brain. *sigh*

Since I'm such a dork, I've named two consecutive Angelfish Gertrude. The first Gertrude was about three when I had to give her, along with all the other fish in my tank, to the fish store for credit. This was right after I moved out of the ex's place and into Melanie's for a few months. The cat and birds were enough for her to take in. Once moved and settled, I set up the tank and used my store credit to get another Gerdie...



Gerdie number two...isn't she lovely? She's about two years old.


Anyway, I believe I inherited my most of my problem with anxiety and depression from grandma Gerdie. My mom grew up in a predominately happy household, however my grandma didn't like taking her meds and that created some particularly difficult times. My mom and her sisters (2) turned out pretty normal due to the fact that my grandpa has a very strong personality. He was a professional boxer for a time and then became a police detective. He's still going strong today, at 95. Well, his body is strong but the dementia is setting in...much to his childrens dismay. He's made things very difficult because he insists on living on his own still. And it really doesn't help that he lives in timbuck-too. Very far from the family. Maybe THIS year they'll get him into a home. ANYway...my grandma, Gerdie. I'm sorry I never met her. My brothers say she was awesome. My grandpa remarried not too long after Gerdie passed...a bitch from hell...but that's another very long and sordid story... At least she's not around anymore, but she lived 'til the ripe age of 92! Ugh...

On to more self portraits! I was fooling around with the camera last Friday and got some fun self portraits...



SASS-AY!!!!



Are you fucking SERIOUS?



What the fuck EV-ERRRrrr



Nice to meet you!



This was obviously taken at a totally different time. I could wear my hair in a ponytail. I can't wait to be able to do that again. I should never have cut my hair above my shoulders...it sucks! When I'm having a bad hair day, it's so great to be able to put it up. AND when I'm jogging. I get slapped with it now. I think it's almost long enough again...I should give it a shot, actually. Yea. Tomorrow. It looks nice now 'cause I just washed it.

'Kay, off to nigh-night!