Unmotivated

I'm feeling so unmotivated lately. So much to do. So much to write about. But I can't seem to organize it all into an entry. My brain is scattered. It's pouring out and all I want to do is go home and sit in front of the t.v. with a big cup 'o tea.

My car is having her engine swapped this week so I've lost my freedom. I'm completely dependent on the kindness of others for transportation. Thank God for Melanie. I'd really be screwed without her. She's the only one who I wouldn't completely and totally inconvenience when asking for rides home from work. Ron's schedule is working out as far as rides to work go.

Even though we're not going to Big Bear anymore (boohoo) I'm still taking this Thursday and Friday off. I figure I have vacation days and I should use them...why not tack them onto a weekend? I'm looking forward to spending some time with Ron and getting some wedding planning done. Maybe I'll invite my mom over for some lunch and planning. I know she'd probably love that. I HAVE to get to it...and being me, when I HAVE to do something I put it the hell off. Seriously, I'd be fine getting married at the fucking park at this point. I hate planning shit. It stresses me out so much. It's all about just getting started. Once I get started it'll ALL work out. Umm-hmm.

Egads...I'd better get on the shipping for today. We've got nothing short of a shitload of stuff that's gotta get out. Time to end this boring entry and get motivated. Here goes!