Yea

It's Friday. I'm so glad... I'm tired as hell today, too. My cousin Nick (the brother of my cousin, Mark) is in town for a week and we got together last night at a bar. It was me, Nick, Mark, my brother Steve and his friend Ben. I wish Ron could have been there, it was so much fun! We did what is exepected, got all shitfaced and talked about old times. It was great seeing Nick again, I hope he moves back to LA... He moved to Minnesota with my uncle about ten years ago. It'd be awesome if he came back.

So, I've been thinking, I'm gonna start a new rule with my blogging. I've made the mistake of trying to latch onto other groups, leaving notes for people in other REALLY POPULAR bloggers comments sections. I'm not gonna do that anymore. I'm not gonna try to play their fucking games if they're just going to ignore me. I'm gonna be ME and write about my life and not give a flying fuck who reads it. Who CARES how many "hits" I get, or whatever. This is NOT a contest...even though I've entered another button contest in another feeble attempt to get some looks... But still, I've been doing this wrong. I need to go through blogs and try to find ones that I'm really interested in and comment there. I'm through jumping up and down in the backround yelling, "lookit me!" "lookit me!" No really, I am. I just get intimidated and envious when I look at these people's blogs. Why do I feel so self conscious?? That's so lame of me. This is supposed to be fun and it's making me feel bad.

No more. Like my few, nice readers have told me before... I just need to keep it up and enjoy it. That's what I'm gonna do. I'll continue doing my own thing. I shouldn't forget that I do have REAL friends online and offline. When it comes down to it, I have much more going on in my life than to have to fret about what strangers think, say or don't say.