Being here

HI. The last few days have been...um...nice. Not much to say. I always start my entries without thinking about them. There's actually plenty to say since I last updated. My weekend was swell. I went jogging again on Friday. Saturday I went with Melanie to get my passport pictures taken. We also started a list of things we need to do and buy before the trip. This week's goal is to get my passport. I already have an appointment at the Federal building. I just need a certified copy of my birth certificate, which I'm going to try to get after work today. Sunday was the last beach trip of the summer with cousin Mark and the kiddie-pooh. The weather was nice but the water was way too cold to swim. It was an enjoyable day for all, anyhow. 'Cept Ron was a bit hung over from the Saturday night concert he went to with some friends from work. A nice boys night out for him. He got home at 3 a.m. all pumped from the experience. He said he wished I'd have been there 'cause it was so much fun and he missed me. Awww... Of course I was the good girlfriend and told him how happy I was for him that he'd had such a great time and that he needed it. We stayed up 'til 5 a.m., forgetting that we had made plans with Mark for the beach. I couldn't fall asleep because Ron was snoring like a freight train. That's another reason I didn't swim on Sunday. Too tired. After the beach on Sunday we didn't do much. I completely blacked out in the car on the way home. All I remember is getting on the freeway and then we were in my driveway. And my neck was killing me. I did go with Melanie to pick up our plane tickets from her dad. I have tickets in hand... WOO!

Yesterday was a slow day at work. Add the fact that some dipshit at the power company screwed up the works causing a MAJOR blackout... Not a very eventful day. Plenty of daily poo-poo work to do, but I just fibble fabbled around...did what I had to though. After work was an impromptu visit with Lisa. She's the new convert to the girl's side. 'Member her? I don't know how to link entries, but I mention her in one of my first entries. Anyway, I had to drop the keys off at her house 'cause I'd watched her kitties last week while she and her girlfriend were in Hawaii for a wedding. Fun fun. It was nice seeing her. Hadn't really talked to her all summer. I had a lot to tell and so did she. So we ended up talking for hours and then the three of us went to dinner when her girlfriend got home. I'm getting better with the whole thing, it's not quite so weird anymore. She's still having some major emotional problems, however. Poor girl...up and down, UP and DOWN. I can completely relate and tried to offer as much advice as I could. Namely...DON'T EVER stop taking your meds. She stopped over the week of the trip and has become an emotional ball of nerves. This is where my duty as a lifelong friend comes in. Gotta be there for her. Yea, all us fucking nutjobs gotta be there for each other!

Seems it's time for me to stop complaining about not having any friends. Since my little sorry for myself session about three weeks ago, I've gotten quite a few 'hints' that I have pah-lenty of people who care about me. Even little miss popular emailed me yesterday. YUP. The Myspace whore. She seemed quite apologetic. But now I know what kind of person she is. Kinda flighty. I don't "need" her anymore. My little backing off strategy worked for me and for her. Always does. That's life. So simple unless you complicate it.

Speaking of life... A fucking fleeting thing, life. Another email buddy told me yesterday that she lost two of her best friends in a car accident over the weekend. She hadn't talked to them in a few weeks. They died in a rockslide on Sunday. Holy shit. Another thing to blow me away. Put things in perspective, again. So many of those little "perspective setting" happenings. I'm feeling a little weird today, been thinking too much again.

Today marks 10 months with Ron. They've flown. It's almost been a YEAR. A year seems so short, compared to my six year ordeal with dickhead. But a year is a lot when you feel like you've known the person for much longer. Add to that fact the whole way we just mesh...and it's all good. He even got me a card. He left it out for me to discover this morning. It was beautiful. I'm so in love. It's a gift to be in love. Never forget it. Never take it for granted.

Okay, I need to get some work done so I can call Lisa. She needs to talk more. It's time for me to do what I do best...and just be there for her.