Do I HAVE to?

I woke up in a foul mood again this morning. I had nightmares all night again... I think I ate dinner too late last night, I dunno. I went to bed quite early, about 10:30, after I read a little. I didn't get to turn on the computer 'cause I really wasn't in the mood. I DID spend all day in front of one, after all. It was an uneventful evening. I came home to a very clean house and the monsterous pile of dishes that were in the sink that morning were all washed and mostly put away. Lovely Valentines gift...hehe...I made sure to thank Ron. I missed him a lot last night. All I did was go for a jog, make and eat dinner, talk to my mom on the phone (she would NOT stop asking me about how my planning is going. I SUCK at planning things and it was getting frustrating) watch some t.v. and get a little reading in before my eyes started feeling like cotton. I barely remember his arrival home. I think he came in and kissed me goodnight. Did he?

Ugh...the nightmares. I don't recall too many of the details anymore, all I know is that the whole feel was frustration and agony, again. I woke up at one point sweating like mad. Some things I remember have to do with driving, trying to get to my parents house. I knew I had to get on the freeway for a long jaunt, but I COULDN'T. I kept crashing into things, missing the entrance, I had to pee, I had to go to work at a new job that I wasn't sure I was going to keep (I kept going back to this building and helping them with the bookkeeping and shipping and I have no idea what they sold), I had to get lunch, I had to pee, there was a burning building and a whole bunch of parrots on the wire above the building, I had to PEE...then my ex came into the picture. I think I had to pick up his kid or something. What the hell? It was weird, depressing and uncomfortable. And I really had to pee, like, in reality, ya know? But when I woke up I was too lazy to get the fuck up and GO already. I hate that. Thank GOD I didn't just "go" in my dream. Ron would have left me for that one! I mean, I did...found a toilet in the weird work building AND at the Carl's Jr. I got lunch at. But I didn't really go. The last time that happened to me was a long time ago and it was just WRONG.

Yea...

I keep having similiar dreams lately... One type of dream has to do with having to go back to school, whether it be grade school, high school or college. The same feeling of depression and frustration is there as I'm either endlessly looking for my first period class (that I missed along with second and third because I just COULDN'T find the classroom) or I'm trying to find the admin office to figure out my jumbled schedule. All the while, the bell rings and I'm engulfed in bustling students...still completely confused and no one will help me. The other type of dream has to do with my ex suddenly coming back into the picture and trying to replace Ron. I keep thinking that I have to marry my ex and that I'm not allowed to marry Ron. Or my ex and I are together like nothing happened and his kid is with us. WHAT?? Yucky yuck...I hate waking up from those, especially.

So this morning I wasn't happy. I didn't make a big deal or try to scratch out Ron's eyes like I usually do. I just went about my business of getting ready for the day with a slight frown on my face. Work has been okay today. It's still a little slow but I'm working on things...even though I'm having a lot of trouble trying to concentrate...again.

I'm looking foward to this weekend though. It's Vegas weekend with Melanie and Tyra, just like last year. Melanie's got her bowling tournament. Unless there is a funeral this weekend for Mealanie's mom's childhood friend. She died, at 56, of cancer this past Sunday. Yes, another little depressing tidbit. It's so FUN when mortality slaps you upside the head. So I have yet to find out from Melanie when the funeral is. I might try to go if I can. I knew her pretty well...

EN-EEE-way, I'm off to try to concentrate on some more shit. And I gotta eat some lunch 'cause my stomach is screaming. Later...

Interesting...'nuther silly quiz

Hmmm...not only did I find out that I'm 45% nerd, I also discovered that I'm 55% stupid. I seem to have forgotten a TON of things I learned in high school. I also seem to have fucked up this link because it's supposed to say 45%, not ZERO... What the hell?? Oh well. There, I guess it's been confirmed. My brain IS melting!!

It's amazing

I get a coupla comments and now I'm all blog happy! Gotta do THREE posts today! Lookit meeeeee!!!! Well, the fact that it was kinda slow at work today helps. A lot. Now it's officially "after work" and time for me to go home.

I just wanted to report that I've been checking out some more blogs today and yesterday and have added two newbies to my list 'o links. Catching up on those will keep me busy for a while and so far they're lots of fun. I think I might have to put down the novel I started last week (I'm a SLOW reader of novels, by the way) and melt my eyeballs reading blogs tonight. Uh-huh, I'm trying to make "friends" and I can't do that unless I TRRRYYyyy...so I'm TRYYINNG. I have to make myself heard, dammit! I'm not gonna be a lurker, I can't afford to be if I want more readers. (no, I'm not obsessed...really!) I guess I should try to participate in the "Stuff portrait Fridays" thing, too. That looks like fun. I might do a couple...when... I. Get. Batteries. For. My. Camera. Shit. How many times will I remind myself? Not sure. It'll get done. I wanna participate! Yea yea!!!

I really had no idea this blog thing was so popular before last year. Where the hell have I been? Working or something?? I remember doing the "Myspace.com" thing for a bit, but that got kinda boring to me so I took my profile down after only about six months. Once again, I didn't try hard enough. But all the profiles just melted together after a while. What started me on blogging was one of the first links on my list...good 'ol Nataliedee.com. I stumbled upon that one day while looking for images on Google for a work project. I started reading her diary and it cracked me up! I just LOVE her random drawings. Then I saw that she was linked to Diaryland.com and I instantly got sucked into reading people. Naturally, that led to, "What if I write my OWN diary??" I've seriously NEVER kept a diary IN MY LIFE. Sure, I've kept a few journals for class or jotted down a few dreams in a "dream book" (that reminds me, I found that thing recently and I should post some of my dreams...hilarious!) but never a serious, day to day thing like this. Interesting... Anyway, I should go because tonight is jogging night. Ew. Gotta keep it up though, I'm back in the swing again. 'Cept for I haven't lost a single fucking pound. Oh well, fuck the scale, I always say. Most of the time.

Deep Observations

...On Life. An email I received from my dad today, that I especially liked. Except for number 9, that is. That one's kinda lame. Me being the animal nerd I am, it bugs me when people refer to whales and dolphins as "fish". It's so ignorant. That, and when they refer to chimps as "monkeys". They're APES goddamnit! Okay... *whew*

1) When I die, I want to die like my grandfather who died peacefully in his sleep. Not screaming like all the passengers in his car."--Author Unknown

2) Advice for the day: If you have a lot of tension and you get a headache, do what it says on the aspirin bottle: "Take two aspirin" and "Keepaway from children."--Author Unknown

3) "Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a supportgroup for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar."--Drew Carey

4) "The problem with the designated driver program, it's not a desirable job. But if you ever get sucked into doing it, have fun with it. At the end of the night, drop them off at the wrong house."--Jeff Foxworthy

5) "If a woman has to choose between catching a fly ball and saving an infant's life, she will choose to save the infant's life without even considering if there is a man on base."--Dave Barry

6) "Relationships are hard. It's like a full time job, and we should treat it like one. If your boyfriend or girlfriend wants to leave you, they should give you two weeks' notice. There should be severance pay and the day before they leave you, they should have to find you a temp."--Bob Ettinger

7) "My Mom said she learned how to swim when someone took her out in the lake and threw her off the boat. I said, 'Mom, they weren't trying toteach you how to swim.'"--Paula Poundstone

8) "A study in the Washington Post says that women have better verbal skills than men. I just want to say to the authors of that study:"Duh."--Conan O'Brien

9) "Why does Sea World have a seafood restaurant?? I'm halfway throughmy fish burger and I realize, Oh my God.... I could be eating a slowlearner."--Lynda Montgomery

10) "I think that's how Chicago got started. A bunch of people in NewYork said, 'Gee, I'm enjoying the crime and the poverty, but it just isn'tcold enough. Let's go west.'"--Richard Jeni

11) "If life were fair, Elvis would be alive and all the impersonators would be dead."--Johnny Carson

12) "Sometimes I think war is God's way of teaching us geography."--Paul Rodriguez

13) "My parents didn't want to move to Florida, but they turned sixtyand that's the law."--Jerry Seinfeld

14) "Remember in elementary school, you were told that in case of fire you have to line up quietly in a single file line from smallest to tallest? What is the logic in that? What, do tall people burn slower?"--Warren Hutcherson

15) "Bigamy is having one wife/husband too many. Monogamy is thesame." --Oscar Wilde

16) "Suppose you were an idiot... And suppose you were a member of Congress. But I repeat myself."--Mark Twain

17) "Our bombs are smarter than the average high school student. Atleast they can find Afghanistan."--A. Whitney Brown

18) "Women need a reason to have sex. Men just need a place."--Billy Crystal

19) "You can say any foolish thing to a dog, and the dog will give youa look that says, 'My God, you're right. I never would've thought ofthat!'"--Dave Barry

20) Do you know why they call it "PMS"? Because "Mad Cow Disease" was taken.--Unknown, presumed deceased

Fluffy hearts and flowers day

Some more cute animal pictures for you... The theme is obvious for this day, isn't it? C'mon now... AAAaaaaaaaaawwwwwwww!!!! It's another Valentines day. One on which I am NOT alone and bitter like I was for so very many years. But, like I've heard so many times, it doesn't MATTER if you have someone or not. It's a day about love. Love for everyone...or just love for those halfway decent human beings in your life that you can actually STAND.

Ron and I decided not to celebrate this stupid day of propaganda. Instead, we will celebrate NON-Valentine's day. That day will fall on any 'ol day in the future. I mean, the guy has been so great to me I can't possibly want anything today, especially since it's such a big fucking lame deal that's been blown way the fuck outta proportion. I have something special planned. I want to surprise him with something cool, but not for a little while yet. I wanted this day to blow over first.

Oh, and yesterday's whining yeilded something that made me feel much better. Thank you. Once again, I have decided to just keep on pluggin' away...because fuck, EYE know I'm special! YEA NOW! I'M COOL AND SPECIAL AND NOT BORING! NO siree, bob. Uh-uh. I'm good. Yea. I gotta pee now. Happy turd day.

MMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Frozen banana (forgot about it in the freezer on Friday) served with cold chocolate-covered blueberries... SO delightful. Makes me forget ALL about the fact that I'm an outcast in the blog world... *sniff* Oh! I hear tiny violins playing! Yes, I feel sorry for myself a lot. I admit it! I AM that boring!

Insecure

I've been blogging for a year now. Amazing, I really can't believe I kept up with this for so long. It has a lot to do with the fact that I'm doing this on a computer. I love being able to see the pretty graphics and, especially, posting pictures. It's been fun. I started off at Diaryland.com and moved over here in December. I'm very glad I moved because I like this format a lot better. It's so much easier to work with.

One thing I'm disappointed with, however, is my lack of readers. I was hoping that I'd be able to make more 'friends' with this. So far, nothing. I get a few comments here and there, but for the most part...nothing. I get depressed when I go over to the other blogs I read and see thousands of comments on those. Then I make comments and get nothing in return. I'm lonely. I don't know how to get this "out there" so it gets more views... I want more views, dammit! I know it's not a popularity contest, but sometimes I feel like it is. Am I that boring?

Habitats

First time I've updated on a Saturday evening in a while. Just hanging out, as usual. Ron is taking a nap on the couch and I'm tidying the house and playing with the birdies. I've got Toby in the bedroom with me, while the lovebirds are out on the playstand in the livingroom. The cages are all put together now, on one side of the room, and the lovebirds tend to bully Toby a little. So I'm training him to sit on a basket so that he'll have his own play area away from the bullies while they're out. There are things called "T" stands for larger parrots, and they're good to have around so that you can take your parrot from room to room with you. A typical stand usually has food bowls on each end any maybe a place to hang a toy or two. Since a parrotlet is so small, a basket with a handle to hang toys on is perfect. Then I've got a little perch inside the basket, where I put a bushel of millet seed for him to enjoy while haning out. I also put a glass of water inside the basket, so that he has something to drink. Sometimes he'll bathe in a glass of water...it's so cute to watch!! I usually take the lovebirds out a bit before I let Toby out. In a little while I'll put the lovies away and let Toby play on the BIG playstand, that is now on top of the fish tank.



This is the big playstand that used to be on top of Pickles' cage. Its new location in the corner is much better. The birds can hop or fly from their cages to the stand very easily. Plus there is a hook in the ceiling over there, so I can hang another small cage that I have, Pickles old cage, over the two existing cages that hold the lovies and Toby. It's like fucking Central Bird Park over there! I'll have to take a picture of it...*sigh*...once I get batteries for my camera. Shit, I should REALLY get on that. I'm starting to miss the little bugger.

Isn't that FANfuckingTASTIC?? I'm having glorious evening. I always enjoy just chillin' around the house with the pets. Stan's on the bed, sleeping away like a good boy.



That's my little hair man! Awwww... the Tobster likes his basket perch. He's over there singing right now. I love it when birds do that. When they're content, they'll just sit there all puffed up with their eyes half closed and blinking...just singing and making little cute noises. I LOVE IT. Toby makes the cutest little noises. Poopsies! It's great that he's content on that stand. I can take him to the kitchen and set him on the sink with me while I wash dishes. Parrots love to be "involved" in what you're doing. They love interacting.

Pickles is getting the hang of flying. He has flown to me and landed on my head twice and my shoulder once this week alone. Punkin' likes to fly from the playstand to the hanging cage, back and forth... It's a good idea to train him to fly, I think he's really missing out. Toby can fly pretty far, even though his wings are clipped. He'll always be able to do that because he's so tiny and light. I'll never be able to take him outside safely, without his being in a cage or carrier...as with the lovebirds. It's not a good idea to take pet birds outside in the first place, there are too many dangers.

Okay, I'm going to figure out what I want for dinner now. I'm getting hungry. Buh-bye for now...

Tweeked

'Kay, one more entry for the day... I tried to link the post, but I kept screwing it up (again *sigh*) so you'll have to go back to the original entry on 1/13/06 entitled "Presenting more of the artist in me". I had mentioned I was going to work on my little self portrait and post the progress. As you can see, I've changed my mind. Rather than working on it, I've decided to tweek it some. Here is my self portrait with bloodshot eyes, bad make-up, a horrid dye job and yes, that's a beard. I like to call it the 'devil beard'. That's it for now. Oooh, those colors are hurting my eyes! Simply hideous!

Proud Moments

I'm back! I happened to check my email after lunch and got a lovely one. Now, I have to admit it here, I've gotten pretty damn wasted...but NEVER in my life have I gotten THIS...







WASTED. I'm so glad my friends send me these things. Really opens my eyes. Especially that last one... Ewwww!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Loosened

I'm happy to report that my back is feeling a little better today. I took a nice, long bath last night, during which I started reading a novel. I haven't read a book in ages and I've missed it. I love getting sucked into the pages of a novel. It's so much better than falling asleep in front of the t.v. Although I have to admit, that IS what I ended up doing last night. After the bath I got into my cozies and sat on the couch with a heating pad pressed up against my poor, tight back. Instant AAAAAaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh's ensued... I'm glad I slept with the heating pad on my back for a few hours because it made a difference. I'm going to do it again tonight while I'm reading. I'm hoping that by Saturday the pain will be almost completely gone because I want to go for an extended rollerblading session.

On another note, I am constantly amazed by celebrities in the news. Good 'ol Brit has child services after her for allegedly (possibly...they're not even sure because of the tinted windows) holding her infant son on her lap while in a vehicle, rather than strapping him into a newly purchased car seat. This is only a prospect due to the fact that she had been seen a week before, driving with her son in her lap BEHIND the STEERING WHEEL. OH NOOOOoo!!!! I can't WAIT to see where this goes... *rolling eyes*

Then we have the old Jennifer Anniston, Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt bullshit. It's all over the damn place! *rolling eyes again* OH SHIT, they fell out...hold on... *pop* Okay, whew...anyway, as I see the three of their stupid, over-exposed faces on the cover of magazine after magazine, I wonder just what the fuck is so fascinating about the whole thing. Ooooh, it's so SCANDALOUS!!!! She's PREGNANT! I just find the whole thing exceedingly rediculous, as do many others. Enough already. Well, at least it's giving Jen a lot of publicity. I don't think she was ever as famous before she got with asshole Brad. Speaking of the Pittster, I never found that arrogant shithead attractive. Boring pretty boy. I got so tired of hearing about girls swooning over him constantly. I always thought, "Brad Pitt, ho hum." I am not really the type who goes gaga over celebrities anyway. I can't stand the lot of them. And all the women who go crazy over Johnny Depp. Yes, he's good looking and a great actor...and I like how he's got that nice touch of weird to him...but that's about it. *Yawn* The only celebrity I went crazy over was in high school...Eddie Vedder from Pearl Jam. Oh yes, and Chris Cornell of Soundgarden. Sexxxy. But that was high school. Raging hormones and no boyfriends will make a girl obsess a little.

That's about it for now. I have to finish lunch and get back to work. I might be back later. Woop-tie-fuckin'-doo, eh?

Pinched

Well, isn't that fucked up... I had written an entire entry and what happened? I hit the wrong fucking button and erased the whole thing. That hasn't happened to me in a long time. I was actually trying to copy the thing so that in case something happened, I could paste it in another document. I always do that. This time, it backfired. Son of a bitch!

Okay, so what was I talking about before it got obliterated? First of all, I have somehow fucked up my back. The right side pinches and pulls whenever I move wrong. The knot running all down that one side is so tight I think my head is gonna be pulled into my own ass... I wanted to keep up on jogging and go again tonight, but I don't think that's such a good idea, unless I want to injure myself further and not be able to exercise at all for a long time. I'm so worried about being flabby. It's stupid, I look fine. I just want to lose a little weight and it seems like everytime I get back into the groove, I lose it again. A common problem, I know. So I guess I'll just go home and exercise the parts that don't hurt, like my stomach, ass and upper thighs/butt. The good 'ol problem areas.

I also mentioned that I received my snowboard yesterday. It's gorgeous! It's a beginner's so it's nice and wide and easy to turn with. Not that I know how to turn or anything, it's just *supposed* to be easier on newbies. I'm both nervous and excited about learning to snowboard. Unfortunately, we're probably going to have to go to the ends of the earth to find anything that resembles snow. I must complain about the stupid weather now...WHY in the FUCK won't it RAIN??? I want some damn snow in the local mountains!! I want to get over my fear and conquer those hills already!!! I guess I could take a few practice runs down my neighbor's steep lawn... Man, me on a snowboard...that's gonna be a sight. When it comes to speed on bikes, skates, watercraft, etc...I'm always afraid to go much faster than a turtle on flypaper. You know, 'cause I don't want to get *hurt* or anything. I've already fucked up my back and I don't even know how!

Okay, I think I covered it. I really have to go now and wrap up the day so that I can go home and do whatever the hell it is I decide to do...

Fuzzy nipples

The ever-fascinating Google...

This is what I get when I type the words "fuzzy nipples" into Google. Beautiful. What a strange and wonderful world. I need to get back to work...

Trivial Tuesday

Just another day that I should be thankful for. Why do I feel trapped? Things are fine. I keep trying to convince myself of that. It's all good and dandy. Life is fleeting. I am lucky, I am blessed. I don't want to feel bad. I just do. I'm worried... So many things could happen. Do you understand? I hope you will try...

Snarf

I think this is the right way to dipict the mood I was in when I woke up this morning. Not a good morning. Not a good morning at all. Yesterday, being Super Bowl Sunday, I overindulged a bit. A bit...hehe...riiight. More like, I ate 10 pounds worth of bread and carbs and drank 10 gallons worth of beer. I thought I was being smart when I took some aspirin before I went to bed...didn't help much at all. I still woke up with a headache and, on top of that, I feel like a bloated cow. Every ounce of good I did last week with my so-called "dieting" was completely obliterated over the weekend. Seems to be my usual pattern. *sigh* This morning I took out my rage on Ron, again, and stormed out the door. Bad, I know. I hate Mondays, especially after a weekend spent being bad. I don't feel like going back to being good. I don't wanna work, go jogging, clean... Yuck. And then having to leave while Ron is still cozy in bed doesn't help at all. I've called him and left an apology message. Not sure if I'm gonna get a response...he's probably kinda pissed and I can't blame him.

I did manage to do other things over the weekend, besides party my head off. I went to my parents on Saturday evening to have a nice dinner and work on the wedding guest list. We got a nice rough draft done and this week I'm going to put in on an Excel spreadsheet and make it all fancy. It'll be much easier to edit. My mom kept wanting to write the whole thing over! So that was fun. Friday night was actually when the partying started, I had Melanie and Tyra over for baked artichokes. They were delicious...yes, more fattening food for meeee!!! Not to mention more beer... Yesterday was the main reason I woke up FOUL this morning. I need to learn to control myself...in more ways than one.

Oh yea, another thing...Friday night the three of us brainstormed and came up with some great ideas to get me into freelance illustration. I'm lucky, I have the talent AND the friends (resources) to do a lot of things with my art. It was very exciting just coming up with ideas...there's lots of potential out there. I will come out of this shell, I know it. Slowly but surely.

Okay, I have to get back to work. The day is half over already, thank God.

Another stolen survey

1. My roommate once: was my older brother, Steve. He was a fun roommate, but a complete and total slob. Not unlike most bachelors.
2. Never in my life have I: been to Hawaii. I need to go pretty soon. I mean, I've been to China!
3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always make me smile: I have two of those, my brother, Steve and my mom.
4. High School was: Not as bad as I thought it was while I was going through it.
5. When I'm nervous: I play with the strands of hair right by my neck. When I'm REALLY nervous, I pull at them.
6. The last time I cried was: about two weeks ago when I was getting frustrated with myself.
7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be: I just happen to be getting married... My bridesmaids are Melanie, Lisa, my sis-in-law Kristy and my neice, Lauren.
8. My hair: Is bobbed short (mid-neck) and naturally curly.
10. When I was 5: I had my birthday party at McDonald's and Melanie and I wore the same dress by accident.
11. Last Christmas I: Drank a lot and enjoyed time with my family showing off my engagement ring.
12. When I turn my head left, I see: The glass door to one of my boss' office.
13. I should be: Working, what else?
14. When I look down I see: I hope to God it's my lap! Oh good *whew* it's still there.
15. The craziest recent event was: Hmm, I guess it would be going to China.
16. If I were a character on Friends I'd be: Shit, I don't know... I don't care. I haven't watched that show since a few years after it came out.
17. By this time next year: I'll be eagerly awaiting my wedding day.
18. Current Relationship Status: Engaged.
19. I have a hard time understanding: Human nature.
20. One time at a family gathering: the barbeque blew up and my dad and grandpa singed their eyebrows trying to put it out with the garden hose. I was watching from my perch in a tree in the far corner of the yard.
21. You know I "like" you if: I look you in the eye when talking to you.
22. If I won an award, the first people I'd thank would be: probably my parents and friends.
23. Take my advice: Never go back to someone you've broken up with more than once. The problems, they come back!
24. My ideal breakfast is: Corned beef hash, eggs over easy, hash browns and sour dough toast.
25. If you visit my hometown: Think it's nice, but nothing spectacular.
26. Where do you plan to visit anytime soon: Vegas with Tyra and Melanie.
27. If you spend the night at my apartment: We could party it up and I'd let you sleep in my bed (with clean sheets of course) while I slept in the livingroom with the birds who like to wake up at seven a.m.
28. I'd stop my wedding if: I realized I was making a mistake. (Good answer, Razor, I agree)
29. The world could do without: evil (another one that I agree with Razor).
30. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than date: Someone other than Ron.
31. Most recent thing you've bought yourself: My Little Ponies, a new kind of shampoo, lipstick.
32. Most recent thing someone else bought for you: A snowboard and a 'Mr. Bungle' long sleeved t-shirt.
33. My favorite blonde is: Marguerite and Melanie (dishwater blonde Melanie)
34. My favorite brunette is: Janine
35. And by the way: I really should be working...
36. The last time I was high: This past weekend.
37. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: Gorillas.
38. I shouldn't have been: So attached to Pickles when I first got him because now he is messed up.
39. Once, at a bar: I got hit on right in front of my boyfriend.
40. Last night I: Went jogging, took a shower, ate dinner and fell asleep in front of the t.v. waiting for Ron to come home. That has become my typical weeknight...
41. There's this girl I know who: Should really stop telling me she's gonna do something and just fucking DO IT already.
42: I dont know: How in the hell I'll ever be able to afford a house.
43. A better name for me would be: Hell, I don't know... Spacey?
44. If I ever go back to school I'll: Stick my foot squarely in my mouth.
45. How many days until my birthday?: About 90.

Curly toes

Where to start. It's Wednesday already. I had a great weekend. First off, I finally got my eyes checked on Saturday. Apparently it had been FIVE years! I had been wearing the same glasses for that long... So I got a new pair that is totally different. They're plastic with dark frames and oval shaped. I like how they match my hair and set off my long face... It's hard to describe. I'll have to take a pic someday. I also got new contacts, a different brand than I had been using before. They're very comfortable...they're supposed to be made of a new material (silicone, I think?) that "breathes" better than ever. Yay. I think I'm good for another five years. Hopefully by then I'll be able to afford laser surgery. I don't want to do it just yet, however, because I want to see the last effects on the people who have had it done recently. The laser technique is still fairly new in that there aren't too many reports on the long term effects it has on people's eyes. I'm definately going to do my homework before I have it done because I obviously only have ONE pair of eyes. Hehe...

When I got home from my eye appointment, I was delighted to see that I had received another My Little Pony a la ebay...



This is Medley. Isn't she darling? I've been looking little by little and ordering them one at a time. Next, I hope to get Buttons... I lost the last time I bid on her. I think I'm going to get more than one at a time. Every time I look, I am astounded at the number of old ponies out there. It's so much fun to collect something dear from my childhood.

After I set up the herd to greet their new member, we were off to Marguerite's parents to pick up the rug and stereo stand. The rug looks gorgeous in my livingroom. It's got a sort of Persian print with flowers and designs all over and it's the perfect combination of colors; off white, pink, olive green and black. We moved things around a bit to accommodate the new things, and put the bird cages in front of the windows. So my livingroom looks a little different again. The bird cages weren't working too well in the spot I had them in, I decided. The stupid sticks on the playstand almost took an eye out of both of us on separate occasions. Now the playstand is on top of the fish tank. All the bird crap is now in a corner of the room. And I love that Ron was able to get all his DVDs off of the floor (I keep tripping on the damn things) and into the stand.

Saturday night we went out to the local BJ's Brewery. BJ's....hehehehehehehe.... *ahem* It was a great evening. We started out with apple martinis (OH YUMMY YUM YUM) and the artichoke dip (HOLY SHIT YUMMY YUM YUM YUUMMMM) and WHAT a start... Oh man, we scarfed down the dip like wolves. Then we had the New York steak and cheddar mashed pototoes with a caesar salad. With that we had to try a Belgian brew recommened to us by the visiting brewer. I have to say that the sample tasted better than the full glass. It lost it's touch after about the third sip. Too heavy and bitter. But it worked up a nice buzz. Then we rented some movies and went home to spend the evening digesting. Ahhhh...

Sunday was cleaning some, then we headed out to Ron's storage locker to pick him up some more of his clothes and some of his snowboarding gear. We're going to the local mountains pretty soon...Ron's got a board for me. I'm scared. I suck at going down hills, I always panic when I start gathering speed! That fear stems from the time I was about five years old and learning to ride a two wheeler bike for the first time. I was with Melanie and we were trading off with bikes, one had hand brakes and the other had foot brakes. Guess who got a little mixed up as she was flying down a hill toward a school yard? I still remember hearing Melanie as she desperately yelled, "Push BACK on the pedals!!! PUSH BAAaaack!!!" All I did was panic panic panic panic panic *PING*! I hit a fucking POLE in the school yard. Instant egghead. That day I got a beautiful purple egg on my forehead AND a new phobia! So anyway, I think it'll be good for me to start out slowly on the snowboarding. I need to feel the supposed "fun" rush of gliding down a hill in a CONTROLLED manner.

The week has been going pretty well. I've gone jogging both Monday and yesterday. I'm going to take today off and then go tomorrow and Friday. I figure if I try to make it a point to go every day in a row, instead of every other day, I'll go more often than not. Tonight is the dreaded grocery shopping errand. Yuck. I wish Ron didn't have such a shitty schedule so that he could go with me sometimes. Ugh... Oh yea, and Monday night I drew in my sketchbook some. I wasn't really in the mood though, and I found myself doodling pointless shapes and shit after a while. I need a project. Speaking of projects, I have a million to get to here at work. It's been a very busy week. I'm tired today for some reason. I was all chipper yesterday and I got to bed at a decent time so I don't know what's up with this slug feeling. I guess I'll just slide through the day. Later...

Happy Friday to meeee! Happy Friday toooo meeeeee!!! Yay! Another weekend to enjoy. Ron is getting off of work a little early tonight and I'm so very glad... I won't have to try to stay awake until midnight! He bought some DVDs and really wanted to watch one with me so I'm looking forward to that tonight. Before he gets home I have plans to meet up with my friend Janine. I'm not sure what we're going to do, I think just grab some dinner. We need to start working on some drawings together and she was going to show me some more of her stuff. I hope she remembered to bring it!

I'm looking foward to tomorrow, too. I have an appointment at the eye doctor to get new glasses and best of all, CONTACTS! I wore them regularly for 8 years and then decided that my eyes needed a rest. At first I just wore my glasses more often, but as time went on I got more and more lazy and just wore my glasses. Then I didn't have insurance for a long time. Now I'm finally covered and I can go get it done. I'm so tired of these old glasses I've been wearing... I think I've had them for four years. And then there's my pair of glasses that I have for lounging around at home...they're missing the right arm! It's not a problem really, it's not even noticeable most of the time. Not until I'm blow drying my hair and I flip my head and they fly off my head right into the toilet. *Bloop* Lovely. I did that a few weeks ago.

After the eye appointment Ron and I are going to Marguerite's parent's house (the one where I visit the cute autistic boy, Paul) to pick up a large throw rug and stereo stand that they're giving us. I was offered them when I visited Paul last week. The stereo stand is in great shape and should accommodate Ron's extensive DVD collection nicely. And the rug is going to look great in my livingroom. It's a whole different color than the ones I currently have so it's going to be a nice change.

Nothing else planned for the weekend so we're gonna play the rest by ear. I'm thinking we should go out and play pool or go dancing on Saturday night. We've been trying to go out a little more often 'cause we've been such couch potatoes on the weekends and that gets so boring. Kinda like this entry! I have a few things on my mind to write about, but I really should finish my work so I can get outta here. I might be back later.

More crap

I'm having a helluva lot of trouble focusing today. Can you tell? I don't feel like working. No one is here again and it's slow. I'm caught up on mostly everything...and putting off other things. Sometimes I wish I were born as someone's pampered pet. I'd love to be a cat or a dog. I hate having to work and make a living. I wish I could just play in the backyard all day.

Some more cute animal pix

I just got these in an email this morning. I love cute animal pictures!! I can't get enough of them. The Springers are my favorite, they remind of a special Springer I know named Tina. I dog sat for her and her big lab buddy, Ike, a lot last year. I miss them...I need to find time to go visit them and their humans.

I love the puffer fish picture, too. I had one named Fred in my saltwater tank a few years back. Their little 'faces' are so CUTE! And they're always right up at the front of the tank scopin' ya with those huge, googly eyes like, "Well hello there. How are you today? Are you going to feed me?? Well, hello there..." Don't fish have, like a three second memory span? I've heard that about goldfish a lot, but I'm not sure if it's true with all other fish. I had some tiger oscars that seemed more intelligent than that. Not to mention the saltwater fish, some of them really look like they're...I don't know...more aware? Especially triggerfish.

*sigh* It's a slow day at work again. I wish I could go home and be with Ron. Once again, I tried to stay up for him last night and I failed. I thought I'd "nap" for an hour before he got home. Next thing I knew he was helping me stumble my sleepy ass to bed. Got a quick look at the clock and it was 1:30 am! I fell asleep on the couch at about 10:30... I guess I'll try again tonight. This sucks.

A survey...taken from Southern Fried Girl

-What time did you get up this morning? Well, my alarm goes off at 6:15 every morning... This morning I managed to drag myself outta bed by 6:47.

-Diamonds or pearls? Hmmm, I'd have to say BOTH. But I'm not a glam girl, I like tasteful jewerly that's not all huge and encrusted.

-What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Oh man, that's a toughie. I don't like movie theaters anymore. They rip you off and then make you sit through 20 minutes of commercials! I'd rather snuggle on the couch and watch a DVD. The last movie I saw, away from my own couch, was probably 'Charlie and the Chocoate factory' over the summer!

-What is your favorite TV show? Forensic files, Law and Order at the moment.

-What do you usually have for breakfast? Cinnamon toast crunch or actual cinnamon toast and coffee.

-What is your middle name? Anne, a very common middle name I've come to find. My mom always wanted me to go by Julieanne, but I chose to stick with plain 'ol Julie.

-Favorite food? Hmm, favorite sweet would have to be chocolate. Favorite others include mashed potatoes, spinach and RED MEAT. I love animals in more ways than one...hehehe...

-What foods do you dislike? Grainy red apples and iceburg lettuce.

-What is your favorite chip flavor? Flamin' hot Cheetos.

-What is your favorite CD at the moment? I recently got the 'ol 'Arrested Development'. I love old skool hip hop. Another fave is 'Alice n' Chains' SAP.

-What is your favorite sandwich? More food? Um, that's have to be the 'Chicago South sider' from Vons.

-What characteristic do you despise? Arrogance.

-Favorite item or outfit? I'm not into clothes at all so it'd have to be an item... Hmmmm, I guess my new rollerblades at the moment.

-If you could go anywhere in the world for a vacation, where would you go? Italy.

-What color is your bathroom? Mostly white. I've got the fishy theme going on in there...so there's some blue, green and various other colors.

-Favorite brand of clothing? I don't care. I have favorite shoes though...Chucks.

-Where would you retire to? Retire? Hell, I have no idea right now. All I know is that I want to get the HELL outta socal.

-Favorite sport to watch? Ron's really gotten me into watch BMX racing. Love it!

-Furthest place you are sending this? It stops at this blog, as far as I know...

-Goal you have for yourself? Oh shit, where do I start?? Probably draw more often and be happy with what I have in life.

-Long term? Own a cute little home somewhere more rural than this LA shithole where I can raise a nice little family. One or two kids...maybe.

-Person you expect to do this first? No one.

-When is your birthday? May 19th.

-Favorite flower? Sunflower.

-Are you a morning person or a night person? NIGHT.

-What did you want to be when you were little? A marine biologist or an animator.

-How are you today? Fine, it's Thursday...very close to Friday.

-What is the date on your calendar that you are looking forward to? In the near future, going up Norht with Ron for a mini vacation weekend. Far off? My wedding, of course.

Cool, that was the first survey I've done in a long time. Fascinating...

Pets past

Awww! It's a picture of Caramel rat and her new buddies! This was sent to me by her new owner in an email update on the little bugger. Turns out she's got a new roommate that looks just like her. Caramel's in the middle, there's Shrew to the left and she's not sure what the new one's name is going to be just yet. There's also one other rat in there with them (she's obviously not in the pic) and I forget what her name is. The cage is gigantic and fits all four of them great. I just couldn't imagine how hard it would be to keep that cage clean and smelly free. That's the main thing I really don't like about rats, they stink. I only had two and I got tired of cage cleaning. It's great to see them all together and happy though.

I wonder how Apples and Bananas the parakeets are doing in their new home in San Diego. I had given them to the lady at work to give to her grand daughter. Last time I asked about them, which was probably about two months ago, she said that the little girl was really enjoying them. I'm so glad... I hope they live a long time for her.

I'd really like to see my conure, Leonard, that I had to give up three years ago. She was only a year and a half old. I gave her to an aquaintance at the bird store that I used to go to. Last time I stopped by there I found he wasn't working there anymore. I hope she's doing okay. I sometimes miss her obnoxious, messy, noisy ass. Sometimes. But I'm glad I gave her to someone who could provide better for her. I can only handle the small birds for now... And definately NO more pets! For now... Yes, my famous last words...

Finding them one at a time

Well, I received my "Cotton Candy" my little pony last week. She was one of the first ever produced. Thanks ebay! I've decided to start looking for some of the 'old skool' ponies on ebay. I have enough of the newer ones for now. I need to find some more of the oldies. I've got a Pegasus, "Medley" on the way and I'm bidding on a fuzzy pony, "Buttons"... I had Buttons for a little while when I was little, 'til my dog ate it. Poor girl ended up a pile of fuzzy scraps all over the lawn. So my herd is growing and I should have a rediculously HUGE collection of them if and when I ever have a daughter. She's gonna be like, "Mommy, 275 My Little Ponies? What the hell is wrong with you??" Of course she won't be able to touch them or, heaven forbid, PLAY with them!!

My attempts at drawing more regularly have been few and far between lately. I've done it a little more, however motivation still evades me. I have to be in the 'mood'. I don't know where that 'mood' to draw has gone, but I wish it would come back. I can't force myself or all I'll do is scribble crap. I haven't even been working on my 'self portrait'. Ugh...I have to do something artistic soon or I'm gonna explode. I don't know what is wrong with my creative juices.

Hanging out with Paul the little autistic boy last week was great. I love him... However, he's started calling me almost every single night since. Cutie pie... I'm gonna have to break it to him that I just can't talk on the phone every night. I don't even like talking on the phone that much with girlfriends much less trying to make conversation with a 12 year old boy. He likes to talk about his bird, A LOT. Hehehehe, it's so cute. But I find myself spacing out and repeating myself a lot. Last night I screened my calls. I can't keep doing that, it's not fair to him. I just hope he understands...

That's about it for this boring entry. I need to get some work done, got another boss coming in from Poland tomorrow and I just KNOW he's gonna have plenty for me to do.

I wuz gunna BUT

I was going to post some new pictures taken over the past few weeks, however, my camera battery konked out in the middle of a photo session the other night. I was taking some very cute pictures of, yes, the boids. I had Pickles and Punkin' on my shoulder and Pickles was giving Punkin' some lovin's for a change...little nibbles on the head. I think that's it for my batteries as of late. I have to go out and get some more and WHO KNOWS when the hell I'm gonna get around to that. I'm too busy, you know, staring at the sky.

The past couple of days have been good. I went out to dinner with Lisa and Paulet the other night. We had Mexican...and the BEST margaritas I've ever had! I wouldn't really call them margaritas, actually, as they were much more like smoothies. Lisa said I just HAD to try the mango, so I did and I wasn't dissappointed. If I had wanted to get any sort of buzz though, I would have been. A very weak and foo-foo drink, minus the umbrella. But it was quite tasty and that's all I needed. It was nice seeing Lisa again and I enjoyed her company. She gave me my belated Christmas gift, a shower curtain. Yes, a shower curtain. She couldn't think of what to get me, and I couldn't think of what I needed that wasn't too expensive. I suggested a fishy shower curtain and that's what I got. I'm very happy with it despite the fact that it's made my whole house REEEEK of plastic. Much to Ron's dismay. He came home the other night demanding to know what the hell smelled like, "Someone fucked themselves with a can a WD40." All I could do was laugh and point in the direction of the bathroom, of course. I need to take that thing down this weekend and wash it with some flowery soap or something. For now, the bathroom door stays closed and the window in there wide open. PEEeeeewyy!!!

I made some delicious stuffed bell peppers last night. Oh man, they turned out fantastic! Just stuffed them with rice and seasoned ground beef. I put some cream of mushroom soup on top and baked them for 45 minutes. *DA-rooooool* So good so good, but they gave me the farts like they usually do. I greeted Ron from bed with a tooter when I heard him get home from work. We often speak to each other in gas...

Tonight I'm going to visit my friend Marguerite's little brother, Paul. He's kind of like a little brother to me, too, since I've known him all his life. He's such a sweet child...slightly Autistic. It's been so nice watching him improve over the years. He really loves animals and his parents agreed to let him have pets a while ago. It started out with a hamster, then a kitty and now he's had a bird for a few years. Turns out he likes the bird best. He still has the kitty but has gone through about three hamsters. Typical... He loves it when I come over with one of my little guys. Last time I visited I brought my rats. Tonight he's going to meet the Tobster bird. I don't think he's ever seen a parrotlet before so it should be interesting for him...not to mention for Toby. I haven't travelled much with him so I'm planning on keeping the visit short so that I don't stress him out too terribly.

I miss Ron so much. It's good for us to be apart, but it still sucks. I'll think of this time in ten years when he's snoring next to me in bed and I have to get up to sleep on the couch. Ah, marriage. It's going to be a blast! No really, I'm looking forward to it. I can't wait to move into a bigger place with him. It'll be OUR place... One day... For now it's time to finish my lunch and get working.

Later!

Hehehe, I love this picture. I had seen it before, but someone sent it to me again today and I had to save it this time...

Well HURRAY for me! I finally took the time to fix my links. Now they actually work! Amazing, I tell you... Took me long enough. I still have to figure out how to link the diary I started out at. I screwed up so much that my damn diary doesn't even show up anymore. I'm sure it's simple, I just have to take my time and figure it out.

Shit, I have some work to do. Maybe I'll be back later on with some photos.

Mmm-hmm

Yes, happy Monday. I had to work today, bleh. Shit, I can't believe I wrote all that crap on Friday night! I just read it over... I think I'M the only one who reads this. I don't really understand how to get more readers here. It seems like every other web diary, journal, blog or whatever that I read has a million fucking readers. I complain about this from time to time, I can't help but let it get to me sometimes. Especially when I post something I'm proud of and NOT A SOUL comments. What the fuck?? How do I get out there? There's so much fucking competition. HELL-OH-OH-oh-oh-oh... Anybuddy out THERE-ERE-ERE-ere-ere-ere... ?? I like writing in this, I'm just tired of no one reading me. Am I THAT lame? I guess so. I suck at links and shit...computers in general. I feel like such a dumb ass.

Anyway...

I had a nice weekend. Friday night I went to Melanie's for while. Tyra was there, too, and we had fun discussing wedding stuff. Then I went home and wrote in here 'til Ron got home from work at 11:30 p.m. I missed him so much this week. It was his first week working nights again. I'll get used to it again, I really will. It SUCKS though. Saturday night Ron and I went out for a lovely italian dinner. We hadn't been out to dinner in a long time. It was nice, except for the crowds. We headed toward the restaurant at about 8:00 p.m....on a Saturday night. Shitty time to go 'cause that's when the whole city decides to go out to eat. Between 8 and 10 p.m. you're gonna have to wait for a table. We were really starving by the time we got a table, but it was worth it. Yesterday I got my new rollerblades. I love them! I found a very cool looking pair at huge Sports Ch@let that Ron knew about. It was a bit far from home, but I'm glad we checked it out because they had a much better selection. Of course I had to try them out the minute I got home! I was all uncoordinated at first because it had been two years since I'd skated, but it didn't take me long to get the hang of it. I brought them to work today so I can go for a spin right after work, before it gets dark.

Okay, it's time to finish up for the day. Later...

Presenting some more of the artist in me

OFFICIALLY DONE!

This is a work in progress. I need a project to keep me focused

and more motivated to draw and create. It's very good for my

brain because I sorta feel like it's melting. I've got my regular physical

acitivity down, now it's time to work on the brain activity.

She needs a good and STEADY workout.

Hahahaha! I found these in my work junk file as I was cleaning it out. Behold...some images from my past temp jobs... I call them boredom drawings. I drew those boxers about five years ago from a photograph given to me by a co-worker. She had seen my drawing of Pickles on my computer desktop and wanted a portrait of her own pets on her desktop. I was up for the challenge! Came out pretty damn good if I do say so myself. Especially due to the fact that it was done on good 'ol Microsoft ah-pixelated painter. The other one is a self portrait I did when I first started at my current job. I had that on my desktop for a little while. It's not really done, there's tons of shading to do but I got bored with it. As noted above, I'm going do some major fixing and shading of that thing. I have a couple other images from my bored temp days on disks at home... I usually drew my pets. I'll have to check those out.

I don't usually draw on computers, I just don't like it. If I can do this great on a shitty old program, imagine what I could do in photoshop and painter! I took some computer art classes in college and made some awesome stuff... But it just doesn't thrill me. Actually, I think it's just that I'm a really simple-minded person when it comes to some things, and my art is one of them. I prefer traditional art. My art is cartoony and looks like it should be animated. I wanted to be an animator when I was a child. When Dizney made those beautiful works of art called full length animated features. Animation is HUGE today, compared to what it was, but it's CHANGED so fucking much. Everything looks all cool and real and there are buttloads of effects but, but it's all too much for me right now. I suppose one day I'll move to computer art because it would be so much fun to create something beautiful with all those effects and shit. It could help me move on in any field. I'm going to stand by my pencil for now. Is that what those things are called? I should find mine. Right... I HATE computers...only because I am AFRAID of them. My habit of procrastination causes me to avoid things like computers. (excuse) That's why I don't think I'm cut out to be a professional artist right now. (excuse)

Part of me wants to be an artist, but I don't like a lot of today's money makers in the art field that rely heavily on computer animation. I don't know... I just don't want to be forced to mass produce or draw characters that look like everything else out there. I'm most interested in the field of illustration, I am very good at capturing the moment. The original snapshot. UGH... But, if I had a dollar for the number of people who have told me that I should be an artist/animator for Dizney, I wouldn't have to work. I used to want that, I reasearched it, looked into schools... People referred me to programs. It didn't take me long to realize that Dizney is the fucking antichrist. I wouldn't give them a dot on a page. They're NOT for me. I know that there are plenty of studios and shit that produce animation, not just the big ones and I know that there are lots of jobs for someone with my talent. Maybe I'm just being a little overprotective and selfish with my art. I don't want to give it to just anybody. I don't want to be part of just another one of those stupid cartoon shows. Although there is a whole new world of sick shit out there, starting with that Sick and Twisted animation show that comes out every year. Good 'ol Spyke and Myke. I like that, but... I don't want that either.I think I've pretty much decided that if I were to do any art professionally, it could be freelance illustration. I've already done a few projects for people over the past couple of years. Illustrating children's books and the like seems to be the best for me because I really enjoy it. There are endless possiblities when it comes to storybooks. Now if only I could get myself organized and put some of my stuff out there. Really try! ...or I can just sit on it and procrastinate like I always do...

Childish

I'm not afraid to admit it...I am 28 years old and I STILL collect My Little Ponies. I just love the lil' buggers. I don't COLLECT collect them, as in keep them untouched in the box or have them all perfectly clean and catagorized in a display case somewhere. I simply enjoy their cuteness. My old ones are a bit dirty 'cause I really played with them...outside and inside. They remind me of good times during childhood, they were my absolute favorite toys. I would take them everywhere, to grandma's, to school, to friend's houses... I didn't just sit and comb their hair or dress them up. No no no! They all had individual personalities and genders and were involved in many dramas, played out by me in my bedroom.

I'd get a new one and get a 'feeling' about it. Bowtie here was definately a girl. The look on her face, to me, is that of a sort of bored arrogance. Like, "Pfft, what-ev-errr, just get on with it would you??!" She was the prissy bitch of the herd. You didn't fuck with her though, or she'd make damn sure you were miserable. She did that to all the new little fillies who had the nerve to flirt with her stallion, Moondancer, the second pony I ever owned. I never liked dolls as a child really, I had a whole lot of stuffed animals. The was Pinkie the Pink Panther, Mikie mouse , Marie mouse (Mickey and Minnie mouse dolls), Bubba Bear, Ellie elephant, Goodbye kitty (Hello Kitty doll with a drug problem), Tady and Sally parrot and the pound puppy family. They all lived and played and carried on with the ponies. The ponies were always in the center. Any dolls were usually evil, except for the Cabbage Patch Kid. She was cool. She sat on my bed most of the time and just looked pretty. The ponies main enemy was the fake barbie family. I never had a real barbie, just a barbie-knock -off little family. Mom, dad, a baby boy and a baby girl. They were always trying to invade the ponyland paradise so that they could build their dream home. Uh-huh, it went on like that in my little imagination.

This particular one is not mine, but it is the very first pony that I had gotten for my birthday when I was six. She's called Bowtie for obvious reasons. I think she was one of the first in the series, not sure...I just know she's really old. I don't have a huge collection, only about 30. I just started adding to it again in the past few years. My originals were at my parent's house for a few years after I'd moved out. The day I brought them home I had to take them out, line them up and reminisce on all the good times we had. Their hair was all fucked up from being in a bag for so long, so I dumped them all in the bathtub and washed them. Then I sat down to comb their hair and line them up to dry. Soon after that I happened to be at a toy store and saw the newer ones. I had to buy a couple... So I've been picking a few up here and there over the past few years. Last night I got a wonderful surprise while grocery shopping. They had My Little Ponies in the toy section! AAAAA!!!! So I picked up a few more and went home to pull out the herd again...

Step number ONE

I did it! I diiiid iiiit!!! Last night I asked Melanie to be my maid of honor and she happily accepted! She was so cute and excited! She is the official BFOTB...can anyone guess what those letters stand for? Hehehehehe! She's going to be a great help, I'm sure. Next I'm going to ask Lisa and then my sister-in-law, Kristine and her daughter, Lauren...who will be a junior bridesmaid. The next most important step is to make an appointment at the church and find out all of what needs to be done. I really have to find out what dates they have available next January/February. I have to get off my ass and do that by next week. I am a terrible procrastinator when it comes to these things.

Stupid quizzes...hurrah! Taken from Lealoo...

Congratulations! You are a traditional bride!

What Kind of Bride Will You Be?
brought to you by

I got this from someone I used to read and just found again. She had dropped out of sight for a while to plan her wedding. It's nice to catch up on reading, especially someone with a wedding agenda... I need all the ideas I can get at this point.

Style

Yesterday I did something that I haven't done in ages. I went to Soooopercuts for a hair trim... Yes, I'd been going to my regular guy for about five years and lately it's been hit or miss. The last two haircuts I've had to go back to him the next week and ask him to fix it. I hated the way his last haircut was growing out. I want my hair to be about medium length to long (a little past the tops of my shoulders) for my wedding and that means I'm going to wait about six months before my next trim. I couldn't stand the way it was growing, it looked like a football helmet...the layers were retarded. Too long on the bottom, too short on the sides...yuck! So instead of calling my regular guy and having to wait two weeks for an appointment, I just walked right into the local Soopercuts and got a simple cut. I saved money, too, and that's ALWAYS a good thing! The girl who did it was very sweet and gentle. I noticed how she was slow and calculated and didn't yank the hell outta my head like my regular guy sometimes does. Now I'm very happy with the results. I can wake up in the morning and just shake my head and have a lovely 'do without hassle. Yay! I'll try to get a pic of it soon...

After my haircut I met up with my friend Janine at my house and we went for a nice, long walk. We both like to exercise and want to try to walk or bike ride together at least once a week. I've been hanging out with her a lot lately and it's been great. We've known each other for such a long time, since we were about 10 years old... She was closer to my friend Lisa, they had met in summer school. The three of us would play together as kids. I'd see her at Lisa's parties every now and again. We hooked up about five years ago at one of Lisa's gigs and hung out a lot for about a year and then lost touch again. Lisa mentioned her about six months ago and I asked for her email address. She was happy to hear from me...she had been through a lot and needed someone to talk to. So we've sorta been there for each other lately and it's nice. I enjoy her company and I like having another girlfriend to confide in. Especially one that shares some of my interests...we've also introduced new things to each other.

Man...it's slow at work again. Oh well, more time to start researching wedding plans. Yea...I'm gonna start soon. I swear! Yea, mom! I'm on it!

I'm okay

I'm feeling better this week. I exercised yesterday for the first time in a little over a month. I always forget what a difference a little raising of the heart rate makes. It's back to the routine, gotta get out and be active at least three times a week for a minimum of 30 minutes. I figure I'll fall into my usual pattern of two to three times a week for a while, slack off for a week or two, go back to it for a month and so on... That seems to be my pattern when it comes to regular exercise. I have to get out and look for a new pair of rollerblades so I can add some more variety. I looked this past weekend and was not at ALL thrilled with the selection. Seems styles have changed a bit since my last pair. That pair was stolen over two years ago. They were a boot style, got them about 8 years ago. The rollerblades of today look like ugly biker shoes with wheels attached. Ugh... Gotta keep looking, I'm sure I'll find something I like. I can't wait to skate again!

There isn't much going on. I guess that's good because I really have to start thinking about and planning my wedding! My mom has started getting antsy now that the holidays...she wants to get together and start working on the guest list. First thing's first! I'm a little nervous about the whole planning thing, as I always get about big projects. But this is supposed to be fun, I'm sure it will be once I get started. I'm not at all sure where I want it. I know I want a Catholic ceremony in a Catholic church. That's about as far as I've gotten. I need to start perusing magazines and the internet for ideas. I don't want anything huge...

So is anyone from Blogspot reading this yet? I've tried linking this to my old diary and so far no luck. Meaning, I haven't figured it out yet. I guess I can start fresh here, as I haven't really been doing this whole publishing myself on the internet for too long yet. It's almost been a year. Woopie. I'm being so boring today. Someone tag me with questions or whatever... Hell, I don't know... Bye for now.

Morose

It's the new year...why do I feel so down? I don't know. Everything is fine, really. I managed to make it through another holiday season without going insane. I got to ring in the new year with those I love. I have plenty to look forward to. What's wrong with me? Why do I feel like shit? It's time to just suck it up and move on, like I've had to do so many times before. This year is going to be great...or at least just as good as the last year was. Right. Life is good. I'm going to live it one day at a time. Don't worry about a thing...

2006

I haven't really been in the mood to update lately...not to mention I've been busy. Spent the past week closing up 2005 at the office among other things. My home computer has been broken again, although Melanie and I finally found time this past long weekend to get together and reformat it. I still have a few more things to do to it before I risk getting on the internet. Anyway, Happy New Year. It's 2006! I'll be back later.