Yes, I think it makes sense. Is today already Thursday? In November? Where the hell is the time going? Ron and I are approaching our four year anniversary. It actually feels like it's been longer... How can that be?
I feel like I'm trying to keep my head above water in a great ocean of depression. I start to sink and then I swim like crazy to gasp for breath. I think my heading to the Y to exercise regularly is about the only thing that's helping my mood. The drugs don't seem to work anymore, I just need them so that I don't have crazy withdrawals. I know, I need to continue with couseling. I just feel like everything I do lately is pointless. And it's the same thing...I know what I need to do but I just don't want to do it. Nothing is ever easy. Yea, it's one of those entries again. Must. Feel. Better. I'm gonna go for now.
2 comments:
I hate that pointless feeling.
sorry to hear about the depression. I've had it my entire life, as did my Dad. Winter is the worst, especially in the East where its snowing and gray. But I think the gym and physical activity is a great idea. I just applied for a scholarship for the YMCA. Its about $30 higher than last year, but I guess its worth it. Activity is truly the key.
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