Getting into the Drawing mood...and the infamous FLAKES

Look! Sketches for another illustration project!!! I'm trying to get myself into the drawing mood again. I swear, I could totally be a successful freelance artist if I wasn't so fucking scatterbrained and uninspired. Not to mention all the shit that's going on in my life right now. Once all of my wedding thank yous are out, I've got some work cut out for me. These are some character roughs. I have about ten ink drawings to do for this guy. Gawd I wish I had a studio to work in. Or at least a fucking kitchen TABLE to work on. With LIGHT. I guess I could do some at work or go to the library...

I'm pretty pissed about my other children's book project. I don't know what the fuck happened to the lady I was working with, but I haven't heard from her in almost a year. Last I talked to her she'd moved to Colorado because her mother-in-law was sick. She'd given me a new cell number and said she'd email me with a new email addy as soon as she got her computer set up. After not hearing from her for months, I tried calling the cell number and it'd been disconnected... *sigh* I cannot tell you how many times this woman told me that this was, "Definately going to happen." All her promises... This is her dream, it's going to get done, there are publishers who are interested, it's a wonderful idea, etc., etc... I always thought, I'll believe it when I see it. Well she's got my drawings so I think I'd better do some research. I don't think she'd fuck me over and publish without my consent, as we've worked together on the project for years...but after dealing with a lot of flakes, I'm beginning to have my doubts. Especially since I've had the same email addy and cell number and have not heard anything from her. Bitch.

Speaking of flakey bitches, I have gotten disappointed by that friend I mentioned in this entry for the last time. Not Rosemary, she REALLY made up for her flakeness from last year. No, it's my lovely horse loving friend Kim. I invited her to my wedding and received the RSVP saying she would be there. I was really looking forward to having her there. Well, she didn't show up. Two weeks later, after the honeymoon and all the hubbub calmed down, I still hadn't heard from her. I'd expected an email at least because I hadn't gotten a call...or so I thought. I sent her a friendly email saying I'd missed her at the wedding (I really did) and asked what happened. Her response..."OMG, didn't you get my message on your cell the day before your wedding??" Apparently she had gotten some sort of throat ailment that week and the doctor had told her to stay home and rest. So she left a message on my cell...which never even registered on my phone. I NEVER received a message from her. I told her so in my ever-so-friendly response, all the while wishing her well like the total kiss-ass I am. I wasn't mad though. I understood. It's wasn't HER fault she got sick. Still, I thought maybe I'd get a card from her congratulating me. Absolutely NOTHING. No card at all. I'm not asking for a gift or money...just some fucking ackowledgment. Now she HAS invited me to functions and shows at her barn and I haven't had time to go, either. You know....wedding and all. So we've BOTH had lots of life changes going on. I can't fault her for that. Plus we live 2 hours apart. It's so difficult to keep up this friendship and it's not even worth it anymore. I just need to lay off and stop getting so hurt by her. I should be the bigger person. I just won't go out of my way anymore.

Man, I just can't get this entry to be spaced correctly. I don't understand why that happens sometimes. Okay, lunch is over again. Back to work for me. Later...