Confusion

I seem to have "lost" a post. I thought I had posted something before that last post. Apparently it was lost. I don't get it. It must be somewhere, but I'm not gonna look for it. Maybe I'll come across it someday.

So, about this past weekend. It started out with a disagreement, just like I thought it would. But we got over that one pretty quickly and moved on to have another nice, but hotter-than-fuck weekend. We escaped the heat as much as we could by going out to eat, seeing "Superman" (FINALLY...and it was good, too) and going to the beach. Seriously though, this hot fucking hell wave can end anytime soon. ANY TIME. PLEASE!

*ahem*

As usual, I was panicking on Friday when I posted that entry. My brain was in total "panic and feeling sorry for myself" mode. I know I am not a nag. I am a normal human being. I keep questioning myself and my abilities. I can handle a relationship. I can handle building a healthy marriage. Just tell myself that I can do it. Tell myself the right way to deal with situations. And DO IT. I've probably said this before and I'll say it again because it makes sense... How we deal with things ultimately determines our overall happiness. We can choose to be bitter and angry and feel sorry for ourselves or we can skip all that shit. We didn't exactly skip it on Friday night, but we reached another agreement. I had to have an emotional breakdown, too. Everything combined into one, big cryfest. It felt good. When all is said and done, everything is fine fine fine.

I am having a difficult time concentrating again. Things to do, things to do. I gotta go for now. Concentrate so I don't get confused. No more mindless babble...for now...